Facing facts
Even with everything going on right now, I am still feeling a bit gun shy.
We finally have a car seat for the baby due in a few weeks.
We even assembled the crib over the weekend.
Despite the unrelenting contractions (which appear to be coming more frequently), the crib mattress remains wrapped in plastic. Tags are still attached to the car seat straps. And the candy bar thrown into my overnight bag, is still the only thing I have packed.
I think deep down, until I meet this kick-boxer inside me face-to-face, she will not seem real.
Despite hearing her heartbeat every week during my checkups…
Or the fact that I look like I swallowed a pumpkin…
It still feels like a dream. Like when an eternity can pass in your slumber, but you awaken only to find that a few minutes have gone by.
Only the opposite.
As if last week I was still wearing skinny jeans and swinging my 4-year old in the air so she could fly.
But the reality is, time has marched on as it always has. With my heart and mind standing still, desperately reaching for any moment to savor, unwilling to let go.
Perhaps this is why the dolls I finally got around to sewing for Babisodes and her soon-to-be baby sister remain faceless.
Just another thing that will make this all feel more real.
I have always felt that way about my subsequent children!
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February 9th, 2010 at 11:30 pm
I remember having that feeling. In fact with both kids I feel like it took about 4 weeks (after they were born) before it felt like they had always been a part of our family.
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February 9th, 2010 at 11:38 pm
I didn’t feel QUITE this way because I hated being pregnant so much, but I get where you’re coming from.
The dolls are adorable.
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February 9th, 2010 at 11:45 pm
I could say somrthing whitty,but alias I don’t have that.big hug my friend!
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February 10th, 2010 at 12:00 am
Aww! Those dolls are so sweet! Can’t wait to see how the faces come out!
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February 10th, 2010 at 12:39 am
I can only try to imagine what it must be like for you.
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Those dolls are cute. You are so good at that
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February 10th, 2010 at 12:55 am
I *really* love those dolls.
I’m sure it will feel just the same way months from now soon-to-be sister starts crawling and chattering at you and once again we’ll be pondering how time has flown by despite our reluctance to acknowledge it. It seems to have a bad habit of doing that.
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February 10th, 2010 at 12:56 am
I wouldn’t allow myself to feel anything was certain until they were in my arms!
And those dolls are adorable, even without the faces!
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February 10th, 2010 at 1:37 am
you made those dolls?? the workmanship is very fine and creative too..
February 10th, 2010 at 2:08 am
How absolutely adorable are those dolls! I can’t believe it’s getting so close
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February 10th, 2010 at 3:12 am
So, I’d like to place my order for a set of those dolls before you deliver Babisodes 2.0. How much do you charge for a set of three? Do you offer a deal like buy two get the third one free? Does the faces cost extra?
Glad you’re doing well. Hang in there, Sweetie. This is the easy part.
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February 10th, 2010 at 4:10 am
It all seems surreal, doesn’t it? My hubby and I also felt that way with our first. We were totally unprepared, even on my due date!
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February 10th, 2010 at 5:39 am
Those dolls are amazing!!!!!
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February 10th, 2010 at 8:12 am
I’m not sure that having a kid is ever something you can really get fully prepared for LOL There’s always going to be something you didn’t think of haha
But, being a mom of 5 I can totally relate – our first baby is pretty much the only one I packed bags weeks in advance for and had the nursery set up way before she got here and all that. CONGRATS… not very long left!
February 10th, 2010 at 8:14 am
I understand that feeling too. Hugs to you.
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February 10th, 2010 at 9:31 am
The dolls are cute. And the kid’s coming, regardless.
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February 10th, 2010 at 9:47 am
Wow … how time flies. I remember when you were trying to get pregnant and showing us all those negative ‘test’ results. Love the dolls and I’m sure you’ll add faces when you’re ready. I continue to surround you and your family with prayers and love.
Hugs and blessings,
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February 10th, 2010 at 10:04 am
The dolls are precious! That is a very cool big/little sister gift.
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February 10th, 2010 at 10:10 am
Oh–your dolls are lovely.
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February 10th, 2010 at 10:44 am
I didn’t know you sewed!! LOVE those!! There is not rushing Sandy – just enjoy the pregnancy that you wanted for so very long! RELISH the baby inthe tummy!!!
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February 10th, 2010 at 11:02 am
You sewed those???? You should SO have an ETSY shop!!!
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February 10th, 2010 at 11:04 am
I love the dolls! And babisodes will love having sister around.
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February 10th, 2010 at 11:18 am
What cute dolls! Hmmmm…. it really does sound like the time will be very soon. Maybe you should toss a robe in with the candy bar.
February 10th, 2010 at 11:47 am
Isn’t it funny how even something you want/wanted so badly makes you feel in “denial” of sorts???
That darn fear of change. Of the unknown.
It will all work out. You will adapt, adjust. At some point this life you have now will seem foreign. You will have a hard time remembering.
Life carries on, with us kicking and dragging behind.
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February 10th, 2010 at 12:13 pm
Awwww. I remember those days and that very feeling you describe. So excited for you and your family!
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February 10th, 2010 at 12:38 pm
Forgot to say that I posted that recipe for my 7-layer dip!! Hope you likey!
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February 10th, 2010 at 12:45 pm
It’s so exciting, isn’t it?
February 10th, 2010 at 2:27 pm
Isn’t it awesome! I’m so excited for you! I can’t wait until you are holding her and showing us photos of her darling little face, or hands, or feet, or whatever!!!!
February 10th, 2010 at 2:38 pm
The dolls you made are adorable. Good luck with the rest of your pregnancy. I was a procrastinator just like you when I neared the end of my pregnancies. Before you know it you will have your sweet baby girl in your arms. It goes by so fast!
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February 10th, 2010 at 2:47 pm
Ok where can I get a pattern for the dolls. You are so talented!
February 10th, 2010 at 4:30 pm
You are not alone. I was in denial with my pregnancy with Monkey Girl. When we needed to get a bigger car (to fit the third child) I dragged my feet. She was a planned c-section but I didn’t pack until late the night before I was going into the hospital (and in fact, we were an hour late getting to the hospital for her delivery). Looking back I would have had my husband assemble the crib earlier, I wouldn’t him to do it until after the baby was born. Yeah, I was VERY hormonal with that pregnancy and extremely superstitious.
The homemade dolls are very cute. I hope you have an easy labor and delivery and wish you good luck for the rest of your pregnancy.
February 10th, 2010 at 4:39 pm
Those are such cute dolls!! I cannot wait to see that new little one of yours.
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February 10th, 2010 at 6:03 pm
Lots of hugs from me to you!!!
The dolls are adorable!
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February 10th, 2010 at 6:19 pm
those are amazing looking!!!!!!!! if only my dd (only a few weeks younger than yours!) liked dolls….
the little baby you prayed and longed for for so long is finally almost here!!!!!!!!
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February 10th, 2010 at 6:53 pm
I can’t believe what a beautiful job you do on your sewing!! I mean I DO believe it! Looks very pro.
All will be very very well. Is well.
And at least you’re not living in a remodel, right?
wink-wink.
February 10th, 2010 at 7:11 pm
Those dolls are gorgeous. I am so excited for you hon, I know that you will be taking it ALL in, one moment at a time.
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February 10th, 2010 at 7:37 pm
The dolls are fantastic……….I really loved your words about the passage of time and your thoughts on the upcoming birth. How close are you, anyway?
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February 10th, 2010 at 8:01 pm
Once that baby is in your arms it will be real enough. I do hope those dolls get faces before hand though
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February 10th, 2010 at 8:48 pm
All too soon it will be all too real. The dolls look cool too!
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February 10th, 2010 at 9:42 pm
She is real and she already loves you.
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February 10th, 2010 at 10:28 pm
With my second, it didn’t hit me until labor started but we bonded sooner than I did with my first.
These dolls are adorable. Do you sell them?
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February 10th, 2010 at 10:31 pm
I LOVE those little dolls!!
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February 10th, 2010 at 10:45 pm
i know life will be even more hectic with two – but i hope you can still find time to blog as often as you do. you have a gift – and it’s not just the sewing.
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February 10th, 2010 at 11:09 pm
Those dolls are so cute! Babisodes and Babisodes 2.0 are going to love them. I can’t believe you’re almost to the end!
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February 10th, 2010 at 11:11 pm
She’s coming, you’re gonna see her and hug her so carefully and say to yourself, “Wow!”
Hey, Kung Hei Fat Choi! Since there are Chinese communities in the Philippines we are very much aware of the lunar new year, too. And I get a day off work. ^_^
Love the dolls.
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February 11th, 2010 at 3:46 am
How cute are those dolls! The reality never quite hits you until the baby is here. Enjoy the baby free weeks! You will enjoy holding her more!
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February 11th, 2010 at 10:08 am
Adorable dolls! And boy, the end is in site! Yea You! (or, not.)
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February 11th, 2010 at 11:15 am
What cute dolls!
And I can’t believe you still have that candy bar in the bag!
LOL!
That sweet babe will get here when it’s her time ready or not…
February 11th, 2010 at 2:20 pm
Wow! It seems like just yesterday that you announced that you were expecting! I can’t believe Babisodes’ little sister will be making her grand entrance into the world soon!
I love, love, love those dolls you made! Is there anything you *can’t* do!?
Amazing! Oh, you e-mailed me your address ages ago, but I’ve misplaced it. Could you please e-mail it to me again so I can send something for the baby…and Babisodes? Hugs from Canada xo
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February 11th, 2010 at 3:18 pm
I remember that feeling!
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February 11th, 2010 at 4:14 pm
Aaaaw, it’s a girl!!! If you have told us earlier, I apologize, I must have missed it! This is getting SO close now!
I LOVE the dolls, can’t wait to see their faces!
February 11th, 2010 at 4:16 pm
I agree that your sewing is fantastic. (I just got out my sewing machine after a number of years and it doesn’t work.)
The baby you tried so hard for will come, ready or not. But how long does it take to remove plastic from a mattress? 5 minutes? Hang in there. xoxo
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February 11th, 2010 at 5:41 pm
I remember laying on the table, having just had a C-Section, and hearing Ali cry the first time – and all of a sudden panicking – because I now had a baby. Nine months and I never REALLY realized it. Freaky moments, those are.
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February 12th, 2010 at 6:17 pm
I know exactly how you feel. Even after both my sons were born, it took a few hours for reality to set in.
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February 17th, 2010 at 10:38 am
Everytime I read your updates, I relive my last pregnancy over and over. I love it!
And the dolls are awesome. Even faceless…
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February 17th, 2010 at 7:08 pm