Lend me your ears and I’ll sing you a song, and I’ll try not to sing out of key.
I never wanted this to happen. My skills at juggling life have proven to be more underdeveloped than I thought.
Like a high school girl dating a new guy, I was weak.
On March 21st, my world suddenly shifted off of it’s axis and began revolving around my new baby girl. Flowers were suddenly in bloom. Birds sat perched outside my window, serenading a beautiful tune. And my heart yearned to spend every waking (and half-waking) moment with my baby. Holding her. Loving her.
Once she came into my life, everything became a pink and lavender haze. Her feedings, breast pumps, Babisodes’ adjustment, laundry, meals, preschool- all of these were suddenly thrown in my direction to juggle daily. As a result, my relationships with friends and family were unintentionally tossed aside.
Subconsciously, I put blinders on, allowing me to focus.
Forward. Ahead.
It is the only direction I’ve seen in the last month. Particularly since everything appears to move in fast-forward. Hours turn into seconds. What’s for lunch? Do we have clean laundry for tomorrow?
Despite how idle it has been on this blog, behind the scenes, I have been fully engaged in motherhood. But not a day goes by where I don’t wish I had the time to document all of the ordinary things going on right now that I know will make me smile in a few years. I reminisce about the time when I could capture my life through words on this blog. When this blog, and all of you, were my shoulders to cry on, my buddies to laugh with, confidants to seek advice from.
But I’ve been distracted.
Every morning, the baby’s tiny tucked body fills my arms more, widening my embrace. In her new role as ‘big sister’, Babisodes has begun to demand more autonomy each day, even though it is unwarranted.
In a blink of an eye, over a month has slipped away. And as I take a moment to pause, I realize I have reached that transitional point in any relationship when the honeymoon phase has passed. The point where I am so sleep deprived, I could pack a much needed vacation’s worth of luggage into the bags beneath my eyes; when the baby’s sweet smell is really just sour milk and vomit; when those damn birds outside need to shut the hell up because it’s 4 o’clock in the morning.
When reality sets in and the world of pink and lavender suddenly transforms to an uneasy shade of ‘holy crap-I-actually-have-two-kids’.
The point where I wish I had an old friend to chat with, or a place to retreat, so I could just complete a thought.
A friend like you. A place just like this.
My closest friends in life are the ones who have been able to pick up right where we left off, no matter how much time passes between phone calls, emails or visits. They are the ones who have stood the test of time.
I would love to consider you one of them.
Because I have so much I want to tell you.
Check out Beth Miga’s photography blog post for more delicious photos of Babisodes 2.0… or Bittysodes…or Youngersodes. I cannot thank her enough for her amazing photography skills. If you are anywhere near the Boston area, you should definitely consider her to photograph you and/or your wee ones. She is awesome.
Can you tell I still have yet to settle on a name for the baby? HALP!
She’s beautiful!!! Congratulations! That adorable new baby girl of yours is way worth all the sleep deprivation and eye bags! Can’t wait to hear more on how Babisodes is adjusting to being a big sister! Take your time… the blogsphere won’t be going anywhere. =)
May 6th, 2010 at 5:05 pm
Oh sweety, I remember those days so so well. It’s HARD going from one to two kids. Especially when you’ve reached that sleep deprived stage.
That little lady is BEAUTIFUL! We are all here for you when you can be.
xx
Marylin´s last blog ..Boys just want to have fun too!
May 6th, 2010 at 5:08 pm
She is so amazing…those eyes are just incredible.
*I still like Meimeisodes*
May 6th, 2010 at 5:13 pm
OMG that is the cutest photo. Nom nom nom. xoxo
Boston Mamas´s last blog ..Yummy & Easy Hummus
May 6th, 2010 at 5:14 pm
OMG!! congrats!! she is just as perfect as BABISODES!! amazing!! i love the photo of her!! i’m glad that you got a minute to blog… and I love your post!! time sure does fly by… but we are all here waiting when you have a minute to yourself. Life changes so quickly that you have to embrace each moment w/ grace. Having a new baby and adding another child to your life is a huge change, so of course we are understanding that you haven’t been here in a while… totally understandable. That being said… I’m glad you are back!!
Maybe i’ll find some time to blog when i’m out of school for the summer… or maybe when I’m done w/ school next year, or maybe when i find a job as a nurse, and get a vacation… Or maybe when my kids are in junior high, or high school or college or when they move out, or get married, or have a family of their own… but i hope one day i’ll be back too!! lol
congrats again to all of you… she is wonderful & precious!!
Much Love, Jenn
jennifer´s last blog ..2010
May 6th, 2010 at 5:40 pm
She really is too precious. I know what you mean about life though, I think about that too, every day there is so much going on and other things just seem to slip away and before you know you feel like you’re behind on everything. The last couple have felt like that for me, and my now 11 month old still keeps me up all night. I often attribute lack of sleep to why time feels like it is just flying by.
killlashandra´s last blog ..Pippi Buds
May 6th, 2010 at 6:19 pm
She’s so beautiful. I’m afraid that if you want any sort of coherent commenting, you’ll have to stop posting pictures of your much too snuggleable baby!
But seriously what the heck with the birds? I thought it was somebody messing around when it first started but come on! all night long? so loud? The birds seriously need to cut it out or I’m gonna be sending my cats on a mission…
MBonn´s last blog ..Happy Birthday to Me…
May 6th, 2010 at 6:20 pm
what a pretty little lady.
Mike Golch´s last blog ..A Sobering Thought.
May 6th, 2010 at 6:44 pm
She is precious and beautiful. Enjoy the baby and your little girl, they grow up so fast. We want to hear all the stories and will wait for them.
Joyce-Anne´s last blog ..Nothing good to report
May 6th, 2010 at 7:09 pm
Oh my gosh, she is sooooooooo cute!!! Perfect!!!
Alicia´s last blog ..WHEN LIFE GIVES YOU APPLES…
May 6th, 2010 at 7:12 pm
Oh. My. Goodness. I am in love and it’s just a picture…how easily you must be distracted! She’s delicious.
Cecily R´s last blog ..Photo Story Friday and Being a Grown Up
May 6th, 2010 at 7:40 pm
She is so beautiful!! Congratulations! And welcome back!
Lauren´s last blog ..PSF and What Yours is Mine (And Not Really Yours)
May 6th, 2010 at 7:46 pm
Oh my is that a beautiful little girl. So nice to hear your words again. I was going to send you an email to ask how you were, but I knew the answer already. Don’t worry, it gets a little easier and the challenges change, but not so much in the sleep deprivation way. Regardless, its all worth it and its all good. I raise a toast in your honor in hopes of full nights of sleep soon. In the meantime, soak in every possible second you can with your gorgeous babies. They get bigger way too fast.
Hockeyman´s last blog ..May the fourth be with you
May 6th, 2010 at 7:49 pm
3, maybe 4 times a week I check your blog (even though you don’t show up in my reader, I check anyway). I think – maybe I should write. Then I think – Nah, I KNOW she’s busy with the BABY and I don’t want to be a pain in the butt. So I wait. And wait. And then I find something that makes the whole wait worthwhile.
She is beautiful. Beautysodes.
lceel´s last blog ..100 Word Challenge – Consent
May 6th, 2010 at 8:23 pm
God you make beautiful babies.
Carrie´s last blog ..Things we’re into
May 6th, 2010 at 9:14 pm
I think about you and your family often. I’ll be here reading whenever you feel like writing! Especially when you keep churning out lines like this one: “Every morning, the baby’s tiny tucked body fills my arms more, widening my embrace.” Aahhh, that’s beautiful!
And speaking of beautiful, that baby of yours is beyond gorgeous. You and your husband DO make amazing little ones! Oh – and I liked “Bittysodes.” She looks just like a ‘lil bit of heaven!
Emily´s last blog ..The Library
May 6th, 2010 at 9:15 pm
Oh she is beautiful. She is absolutely beautiful.
Heather´s last blog ..all new
May 6th, 2010 at 9:15 pm
There will be time for blogging in the future. As I tuck in my 21yo who is graduating from college Sunday, I promise, there will be time.
May 6th, 2010 at 9:17 pm
she is absolutely gorgeous! take your time…we’re waiting patiently for your posts!
taraneh´s last blog ..Day 3 and 4 & Some Faves
May 6th, 2010 at 9:21 pm
OMG THAT BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HOW ADORABLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <>>>>>>
May 6th, 2010 at 10:00 pm
With a face like that, it’s a wonder it didn’t take you a year to re-surface. She’s amazing!! Glad to hear all is great and everyone is adjusting well!
Apryl´s last blog ..Spending for Mother’s Day is Up
May 6th, 2010 at 10:29 pm
She is gorgeous!!! This is the time to take it slow and enjoy ALL of it. I can only hope that I will be in your shoes some day. Sending lots of hugs and congrats!!!!
Mama in Suburbia´s last blog ..I’m a Believer
May 6th, 2010 at 10:47 pm
She is absolutely beautiful. I’m slightly jealous.
Can’t wait to her more about life with two kids, when you have a free moment to spare.
Allison´s last blog ..Coming Soon…
May 6th, 2010 at 10:55 pm
Can I tell you it gets better? Does that help? Because it really does.
And, holy cow that baby is absolutely beautiful. And perfect and precious.
(Of to check out more of Beth’s photos. She is awesome.)
Krystyn´s last blog ..The many faces | PSF
May 6th, 2010 at 10:57 pm
She is so beautiful and I can’t wait to read more about her!
Lisa @ Boondock Ramblings´s last blog ..Project 365: The Final Week
May 6th, 2010 at 11:30 pm
what a little doll you have! such a cutie! i like the name bittysodes!
hazel´s last blog ..Update.
May 6th, 2010 at 11:31 pm
I suggest “The most beautiful brown eyes, I think I could get lost in them – isodes.”
She’s beautiful.
Chris´s last blog ..Photostory Friday: 365 Week 18
May 6th, 2010 at 11:37 pm
OMGoodness…you captured the haze of that first month so perfectly….
Your baby is simply delicious!
debi9kids´s last blog ..And, Life Does Go On…..
May 7th, 2010 at 12:11 am
Oh she is beautiful!
And I can totally understand. If I hadn’t of gotten so broken and needed Nat home as a carer, 2 kids would have killed my blogging.
Veronica´s last blog ..The Awesome Power of the Internets
May 7th, 2010 at 12:18 am
A month later and still awesome adorable.
As tired as you get and as hard as it may be to keep it all going, I’ll bet on those nearly non-existent moments when you can hold the smells, sounds, and exhaustion at arm’s length, you can hear something whispering that it’s all good… and if you can’t yet, you’ll get there.
I always look forward to your posts. Glad to hear from you.
Daniel (small kitchen garden)´s last blog ..Mulch Your Small Kitchen Garden with Lawn Clippings
May 7th, 2010 at 12:45 am
Missed ya, Sandy! Don’t worry, it’s pretty understandable and you are thoroughly enjoying the ups and downs of motherhood X 2!
ceemee´s last blog ..For Mom’s Day, I’d like…
May 7th, 2010 at 1:35 am
Oh My God she is absolutely precious!
I still like bittysodes
Erin´s last blog ..You just haven’t had it cooked properly
May 7th, 2010 at 2:26 am
OMG, she is delicious. I want to smooch all over her! I LOVE the yawning pic on the photography blog. All of the pics are amazing.
I like bittysodes too!
May 7th, 2010 at 3:35 am
She’s PRECIOUS! I don’t blame you one bit. Come back and share whenever you are ready.
Ashlie- Mommycosm´s last blog ..Head banging
May 7th, 2010 at 7:55 am
Oh my stars, she is just the most gorgeous little thing! I can totally understand your rapture. And I am absolutely ready to pick right up where we left off, sweet Sandy!
PS – I like Bittysodes!
Cara´s last blog ..Sunshine
May 7th, 2010 at 8:56 am
Congratulations. She is absolutely beautiful.
May 7th, 2010 at 11:21 am
I love that picture, it makes me smile. I sent this to my husband and told him ‘that’s probably what our baby will look like too’. I love the rest of the photographs, enjoy your baby and take your time with the blog.
Candy´s last blog ..Friday Photos.
May 7th, 2010 at 12:06 pm
I just finished getting to know you in your archives and I definitely look forward to more! I feel like we’ve been friends for a long time. Here’s hoping to more great stories. Enjoy your babies
May 7th, 2010 at 1:08 pm
Oh my gosh, she is absolutely adorable, just darling.
savvygal´s last blog ..Cosmetic Goodies from Beuaty Fix
May 7th, 2010 at 1:09 pm
Woah, she’s gorgeous! Glad you’re back! And don’t beat yourself up…it gets wayyyyy easier!
Emily´s last blog ..PSF and a lesson learned
May 7th, 2010 at 1:33 pm
She is so precious! Like a precious moments doll! Seriously!
I know what you mean about having blinders on. It’s like a defense mechanism when you are so tired and need to move forward. I think anyone who has had newborns knows what that feels like. And I think it’s important to focus on your family
I would be worried if you weren’t…
Sara´s last blog ..I went for an oil change and of course there were more issues…
May 7th, 2010 at 2:00 pm
I can see why you don’t want to put her down. She’s too kissable!
And I like bittysodes.
TracyU´s last blog ..I HEART you
May 7th, 2010 at 2:03 pm
Oh, sweetness! She is absolutely gorgeous, and special, and ever so scrumptious!!! I’ve been thinking of you, Babisodes, Babisodes 2.0 and Dadisodes. Wondering how you’re all doing and wishing you all the best.
The focus on the newborn and everything else under the sun is an adjustment, and like everyone here has said, anyone with a newborn or who has had a newborn will totally understand. If not, then too bad for them
No, seriously…I think we’ve all been there and totally understand. Love ya! XOXO
May 7th, 2010 at 2:37 pm
She is so beautiful, and I really, really love how you wrote this wonderful post. Wishing you many extra hours of sleep!
angie´s last blog ..My Mother
May 7th, 2010 at 3:56 pm
We’ll be here! What an adorable little one. No name? Someone’s not in a hurry I guess…
Puna´s last blog ..The Pioneer Woman Book Signing In Fairfax VA
May 7th, 2010 at 4:30 pm
She is so beautiful, with or without a name!
And I totally get where you are. But we’ve missed you around here!!
btw – I’m pregnant!
I’ll be joining you in your fog in about 7 months…but hopefully you’ll be way out of it by then.
Rachel @ Grasping for Objectivity´s last blog ..The Perils of Sleepwalking and Motherhood.
May 7th, 2010 at 5:21 pm
She is so beautiful!!!
Doll Clothes Gal Pal´s last blog ..Bohemian Hairstyles For Your 18 Inch Dolls
May 7th, 2010 at 6:59 pm
Frankly I’m surprised you are “back” already!!!
And that photo … GORGEOUS!
Jenners´s last blog ..Reading My Childhood Diary: Part 3
May 7th, 2010 at 7:22 pm
And here I was, feeling a bit guilty, because I haven’t been by in a while. I knew you were busy. I knew she was precious – but….O. M. G. She’s gorgeous. Absolutely stunning! Congratulations again and again and again. Go love on your precious family. We’ll all still be here when you get back!
Jane´s last blog ..Shake, Shake, Shake Your Booty With A Little Blog Hopping!
May 7th, 2010 at 8:11 pm
She is so amazingly beautiful.
I like Bittysodes. A lot.
MommyTime´s last blog ..Easiest Yeast Bread Ever
May 7th, 2010 at 8:47 pm
I do believe she’s one of the most stunningly beautiful babies I have ever seen! Gorgeous!
And let me just say… once you get the hang of two? The third one is a breeze!
)
sheila´s last blog ..Miscellaneous Musings The Great Outdoors
May 7th, 2010 at 9:27 pm
http://jingleyanqiu.wordpress.com/2010/05/07/family-friday-special-happy-mother-day-family-first-award/
Family First Award.
Happy mother’s Day!
May 7th, 2010 at 9:39 pm
Aaccckkkkkkkk!!!!!! I’ve been away from the blogging world for the last few months and look what I’ve missed!!!!!!! I’ve thought about you and knew baby girl must have been born. And you, my friend, are what almost brought me back to the blogging world a month ago. But sleep won out.
And now, I see what I’ve missed and I’m sad that I missed it. But glad to see your beautiful new daughter now!
CC´s last blog ..It should have been made with unicorn hair
May 8th, 2010 at 1:41 am
Bittysodes is an adorable name… Beth’s photo is incredible.
You’ve had your hands and heart full with your two beautiful daughters. We’ll be around when you’re ready.
Tara R.´s last blog ..My sunset sky
May 8th, 2010 at 11:13 am
I LOVE the name!
I’ve heard it said that the transition from one kid to two is far tougher than two to many. Just get adjusted and we will ALL be here when you get back into the swing of things.
Undercover Princess´s last blog ..Dear Hater
May 8th, 2010 at 11:32 am
Aww…Bittysodes is just beautiful!
Asianmommy´s last blog ..Happy Mother’s Day Cookies
May 8th, 2010 at 12:28 pm
OH. MY. GOODNESS! I could eat every bit of your little Bittysodes. (LOVE that name!) She is just BEAUTIFUL and those pictures are so perfect. So, perfectly pink. I am tearing up just looking at her beauty.
We’ve missed you. I can’t believe it’s been a month already! WOW! I can’t wait to her more yummy delicious details about Bittysodes.
Run DMT´s last blog ..Sweet Angel Julia
May 8th, 2010 at 2:26 pm
me & staceisodes just cooed our faces off!!! she’s adorable! i’ll still be here!
congrats again!
May 8th, 2010 at 8:34 pm
Great to hear from you again! Babisodes 2.0 is so “present” in that photo! She’s going to be a power to reckon with, I think. A strong, calm girl. And CUTE! Keep us posted when you can. (((hugs)))
May 8th, 2010 at 8:39 pm
BEAUTIFUL!!!!!! What an incredible picture. She is so precious! I don’t blame you one bit for gazing into those pretty eyes rather than a computer screen.
This was a wonderful post (of course!) and, like your other followers, I’ll be here whenever you are able to blog.
What a doll!!!!!!
Kelly´s last blog ..open door
May 9th, 2010 at 12:03 am
Look at that perfect, beautiful pinkness! So sweet. I can see the love in her eyes.
Welcome to the world of parenting two small children! Chaotic. Blurry. Sleep-deprived. I hear you, my friend.
Holly at Tropic of Mom´s last blog ..A storyteller is born
May 9th, 2010 at 12:15 am
Oh, she looks so snuggly in that pink knitted legwarmer? Whatever it is, it’s cute!
Yes, I remember the feelings you are having right now. And at that time my only wish in life was about 10 hours of uninterrupted sleep and an uninterrupted shower.
Hang in there! And don’t be afraid to be a little selfish and get away for a little while…especially on Mother’s Day.
Melissa´s last blog ..Happy Easter
May 9th, 2010 at 2:17 am
The most beautiful baby of the year award……I swear……. Happy Mother’s Day!
Sharon´s last blog ..Marble Magnets – Teacher Appreciation Week
May 9th, 2010 at 1:20 pm
Oh wow, she is just so gorgeous!! Just went to have a peek on the other blog.
Jeanette´s last blog ..The Jacobson Family
May 9th, 2010 at 5:33 pm
sandy! she is gorgeous. beautiful, beautiful. hope you had a somewhat restful mother’s day
prasti´s last blog ..thank you mom!
May 10th, 2010 at 11:48 am
Those photos are so precious! My vote is for Bittysodes. Let me know if you’re up for a visit from up north. Hope you had a wonderful Mother’s Day!
Angela at mommy bytes´s last blog ..Biking to Work – Infinity MPG
May 10th, 2010 at 2:37 pm
She is gorgeous.
Secret Mom Thoughts´s last blog ..Happy 3rd Birthday Davey!
May 10th, 2010 at 5:03 pm
She is so precious!! I vote for bittysodes.
You know we will always be here for you no matter how long you will need to take times for your precious little gifts. Heck! I don’t have a new born but it took me 4 days to catch up with my RSS feed!
Glad to see her precious smile though.
Amy @ The Q Family´s last blog ..Dreaming of: Cruising with Kids (Again and again and again)
May 10th, 2010 at 8:29 pm
That picture is beyond beautiful. Your daughter is adorable.
I do remember those beginning days of life with two (we have three now). For the first few months until the new baby was sleeping through the night, I thought I would never be able to get my head fully above water again, but I did.
Life never did go back to “normal,” instead I had a new schedule and a new normal. My family was never the same and I thank God for that every day!
KayEm17´s last blog ..No Mudbugs on Mother’s Day
May 11th, 2010 at 11:03 pm
YOU…my dear Momisode x2…are AMAZING!! Do not apologize for not updating. You have your hands (and your heart) exactly where they need to be. What a beautiful blessing she is indeed.
I have not been around as much either…but I’m never too far away.
PROMISE!!
Grandy´s last blog ..Blogging from the Airport
May 12th, 2010 at 12:45 pm
She is so beautiful! Congrats!
Leslie´s last blog ..our new pets
May 13th, 2010 at 4:30 pm