Almost every night this week I’ve had long, vivid dreams.  Not the kind that feel as if they lasted for hours, when in fact, it had been only a few minutes.

My sleep pattern has evolved into the usual 9-month pregnancy state where I naturally wake up every 2-3 hours for no reason whatsoever in preparation of what’s to come.

And every time I fall back to sleep, my dreams would continue where they left off.

Throughout the night, I have a string of dream sequences that feel as real as the stack of pillows beneath my cheek.

Every single one has been about an ex-boyfriend.  Not the assholes, but the ones who were kind.  The ones I came to love once upon a time and still hold fond memories of.

My guess is that I’m subconsciously reaching back for their affection.  Or back when I was younger, thinner; a time when I exuded more confidence and smiles.

But also, maybe because as of late, Dadisodes seems even more distant than those times.

I suppose I can’t blame him.

I am sure it is intimidating for anyone to wrap their head around all of the changes that lie ahead… as well as their arms around someone so large.

38.5 weeks pregnant

But I don’t feel an ounce of guilt.

It’s not like I went out to dinner with them or anything.

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I’m going to cry.

Or polish off a quart of Breyers mint chocolate chip ice cream.

Every time I’m asked.

Anyway, the past couple of days have been a bit rough.

I went from having contractions every 10-15 minutes, to every 5 minutes. Many of them quite strong and painful.  This has happened everyday since Friday, lasting for a few hours on and off.

By the end of each day I feel like I’ve run a marathon because of the constant contractions and breathlessness.

This is definitely not how things unfolded with Babisodes four years ago.  With her, I had mild contractions for a few days, my water broke, and once I couldn’t bear the pain any longer, we swung by Panda Express on the way to the hospital so I could grab a bite to eat (since I knew they wouldn’t feed me until after she was born).

This time around, my body wants me to suffer.

I finally called my doctor today to get myself checked out, and I am a whopping two centimeters dilated.

If you are unfamiliar with the stages of labor, 2 cm’s is not a big deal. At least not for the activity that I’ve had recently.  Most hospitals admit woman when they are about 4 cm’s or if their water has broken.  A baby is delivered at 10 cm’s.

By this time during my last pregnancy, I had already been 3 cm’s for over a week (with little to no pain), and it took another week and a half before my daughter was born.

If this kid wants to cook inside for another week or so, fine.

But enough with the bluffing already.

37.5 weeks

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But I do believe that the holidays may kill me.

My apologies for neglecting the blogosphere for several days, but I have been quarantined to the hole in my upstairs bedroom.

Between a slew of holiday parties, insane post office lines, and dodging crazy shoppers at Target, my body has finally given up.

Despite getting both the seasonal flu and H1N1 vaccine several weeks ago, I managed to come down with the one thing I am not immune to- Laryngitis.

A constant low-grade fever, full body aches, feeling like I swallowed two Brillo pads, and a partridge in a pear tree.

(25 weeks pregnant)

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